20230519 Friday, May 19th, 2023

I NEED OUT OF A VERY BAD SITUATION

A little more than a decade ago, after CAPITALISM handed my ass to me (the 2008 crash, and subsequent fallout), and I was left with pretty much nothing, I agreed to be sent to TX to be with my mother and sister.

This was mistake more than it was any benefit. I am in no better place than I was 10 years ago.

The past 10 years have been a lesson on how NOT to navigate this late-stage capitalist landscape, and I have taken the brunt of the "trauma" that comes from the attempt.

Roughly 10 years ago, as well, I came to the conclusion that I am autistic. This revelation allowed ME to understand how "I" truly fit into this hellscape. Unfortunately, others in my life did not accept this. So be it. What had any of them ever really done for me, anyway?

As the months and years went by here in TX, our mother, through her retirement funds, paid IN FULL the rent... as well, would be awarded $70K due to the City of San Diego pulling a SNAFU on a property our mother had been kicked off of many years before. My sister would spend ALL of this $70K within 6 months. I would not get any of it. So be it.

As the months and years went by, we would move 7 times, to places far from the previous residence. Through these MAJOR traumatic events, I tried my best to "deal", and always did my "chores" and took care of the "little ones" as well as my mother, with nary a peep. I always tried to create a garden... something I've ALWAYS WANTED TO DO my entire life. Every year for some 35 years I've had that dream dashed against the wall and buried.

Our mother would pass during this time. This would lead to some unbelievable BS.

As the months and years went by, I would see how UNCARING my sister truly is, by her attempts to "fix" her former "husband's" life, as well as several children in his family. It can be argued that my sister is authoritarian/reactionary.

So be it.

Now, finally, just last year, I was assessed "officially" as autistic, and was granted disability for this... but the funds would not come soon enough. We were now in a tiny house, me in a tiny room, along with her biological father (how she refers to him) Much trauma has happened here, as well.

Have I mentioned she has tried to kill me 3 times now?

I need to get away from her. It is not healthy to be around her. She has even stopped recycling, something that is a major affront to my "beliefs". It's downright disgusting.

I have told her 2 times that the dogs are COVERED with fleas, and the soap we have DOES NOT WORK. Nothing has been done. The AC filter has not been changed in a year. Any time I try to press an issue, she screams at me.

I just want to live life how "I" see fit, and not under the supposed "care" of this terror of a sibling.

I just want MY SSI to be used as "I" see fit, and not STOLEN from me, to be used to cover HER FUCK-UPS.

All I have is a 2006 laptop that has a dodgy power connect, and NO phone (not that I care for one) I have NO bank account, NO webcam (thought I could stream my pleas) (also, not that this computer could handle it) This area we live in has NO amenities nearby... plus I must walk more than a mile to get to a gas station/shuttered strip mall that is literally right behind our backyard fence. I have no vehicle (not that I care for one)

The organization where I was assessed, that SUPPOSEDLY is there to HELP autistic people, does not answer my e-mails.

I NEED OUT OF THIS VERY BAD SITUATION. PLEASE HELP ME GET OUT OF THIS VERY BAD SITUATION.

Thank you.